Hello Sadness — Sapore Di Mare
I think there are few words that you can actually feel. I mean can you feel love, for instance, while pronouncing it, I don’t know if its about its common usage or not, but I can’t feel it right now (and I am saying the word now, trust me) but Sadness, sadness is so deep, it touches the deepest places of one’s soul.
I wasn’t even planning to discuss the word itself in the beginning of this post, it just came out.
Calling sadness a mood is such a shameless underestimation of this word, it’s more like the condition of your soul.
I can’t think of any other names of a book or a movie that touched my soul so deeply like Francoise Sagan’s “Bonjour Tristesse” did; I fell in love and moreover got attached to the story, before even opening the book.
I have never in my life heard a sentence so touching, filled with romance, summer breeze, love, loneliness, joy, melancholy and sadness itself at the very same time; that’s insane, how one sentence can contain so many emotions, yet none of them be less important than the other.
I know I am throwing my thoughts at you without any order, it’s just I was feeling sad and caught myself trying to deny by distracting myself from it and I realized we, grown ups often do that.
In my childhood and teenage years I actually knew how to enjoy my sadness, but then at some point I stopped being friends with it, as if someone told me it was something to be ashamed of and that I should have been stronger than my sadness all the f…ing time (well, this last one is such a bullshit)
I think we are what we feel and it would be so boring if we felt happy or veery strong all the time, pain and sadness is what makes us think about things, things that really matter, valuable things. I don’t believe that anyone has ever thought about very meaningful concepts of life, while being very happy and surrounded with many people, sadness makes us grow up, so I decided to welcome it back in my life every now and then, embrace it and greet, greet warmly every time it decides to pay me a visit.
Well,
Hello Sadness !
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Originally published at https://www.saporemare.com on November 5, 2019.